Friday 30 March 2012

Animal Love

Today I missed home..

There are two beautiful dogs out here, who give that kind of love that only a pet can give. I know this love well... When I was allowed to start over one of the first things that crossed my mind was a panic-inducing need to hold my cats again, making sure they were safe and in my arms. I don't have any children... and the concern I feel over the safety of a few animals makes me think I'd go into a permanent coma from worry the moment my child was born.

Pictured: the reason I am terrified to have children.

Animal instinct I believe stays largely with the animals. There are a few people out there with good instincts, but animals can sense things so much quicker than we can... From the character of a person, to incoming danger. Not a day around the world goes by where you don't hear a "fluff" news piece of some animal saving a life. There's a good reason for that: they are better at it than we are, it is their full-time job. Don't get me wrong... I'm not saying my cat could drag me out of a fire... that's a canine thing. However, I do believe they could, and would warn me of incoming danger, or intercept that danger to buy me some time.




which one would you like to pet?


I have already lost a pet to the protection of human life... long before I was old enough to understand just how heroic my animals actions were. I was probably about seven or eight years old when it happened, thankfully I never witnessed my injured cat... I was scarred enough without seeing to know to this day exactly what was going on when I heard my cat had died. Near to our house growing up was a violent dog with behaviour issues; I should take the time here to mention I believe behaviour issues lie always in the hand of the dogs environment when being raised, and not inherent in breed. This dog was in the back of a pickup, but not properly secured to  it, when it saw some children get too close and decided to attack. My cat was either in the wrong place at the wrong time, or it knew that this was his moment... I like to think it was the latter. Anyways, Mouser proceeds to walk between point A (the dog) and point B (the kids) and averted attention from the children making itself the new target. He died in the days that followed. I will always remember you Mouser... I'm sure my mom looked ridiculous keeping you in the stroller when we went shopping. You were that amazing of a cat. Letting my sisters dress you up, coming along on walks, even if you were out playing in the woods you would come when you were called. pretty amazing for a cat.








Do it. I Double Dog Dare you.
I know this all sounds very sad but trust me the only tears I shed for him are tears of joy. that cat lived a full and amazing life. I've had almost as many animal lives touch me as I have human lives. I hope some day I will be blessed to have space enough to care not only for my current feline friends, but also a canine to love. My current cats (pictures coming soon!) "Buck Rogers of the 25th Century" and "My Boyfriend Astronaut Michael Dexter" were both adopted from the Edmonton Humane Society. If you are looking for an animal to love, I highly reccomend them or your local SPCA.. You can help change the lives of these animals.


... and if that's not incentive enough you will get them for dirt cheap compared to private sellers! ;)


Happy Days Readers
PRKW

(For those curious about all the details I remember when I had heard my cat died... It was the afternoon and it was sunny out, our PlayStation was still a fairly new toy to us and the TV was against the west facing wall at the time, I was playing the racing game "Car-Toons" with my sister, and was going to play "Croc" when we were done. I was wearing a dinosaur T-Shirt from Drumheller and jeans, my sister was wearing either a pink or yellow sundress. We had just finished eating a plate of Saltine crackers with peanut-butter and jam on them... I could hear my parents talking before so I already knew something was up. My dad had medium length hair, and still wore bigger framed glasses (I guess they weren't quite out of style yet). don't remember what he was wearing.)

Thursday 29 March 2012

A Day Off.

Yes Happiness Readers... there was no post yesterday.

And I'm sorry to dissapoint, but if you're looking for original content made by yours truly today you won't find that either. Call it what you want... I'm calling it a weekend. I'm sitting on the couch watching through the seasons of Reba while playing an old Final Fantasy game on my handheld. My body hasn't gotten used to the water out here and the toilet was my best friend yesterday.

Enough about me... I have some funny content created by other people for you to enjoy today..

Rhett and Link are two very funny gentleman who have a daily morning talkshow...
I'm posting this specific video because it made me think of my dad... it's his kind of humour
(also surprise! I'm Canadian. I spell humour with a "U")


Next up... 10 Second Traumas. Anna and Dee post a weekly  10 second video,
usually describing an "FML" moment or some universal experience... check em out :)


And last... Ray William Johnson with "=3". if you don't know who RWJ is yet... that's a good sign
that you are NOT spending too much time on the internet.


Happy Days Readers.
Back with fresh new content tomorrow.
PRKW

Tuesday 27 March 2012

Good Customer Service!

Dear Regent Mall of Fredricton,

You are quite simply... Awesome. you aren't the biggest mall around, or the flashiest... but you will stick out in my head above all the other malls I have ever been to for one reason and one reason alone. Your staff make me feel happy.

My Journey today started with helping my sister clean up some of her house before I headed out. putting in some good work before heading out. My first stop would take me to the Fredricton Canadian Tire... looking for a hockey jersey. I spent probably a good 40 minutes in there, was not approached by a single person... and had an associate walk away from me when I came near... I did eventually find what I was looking for... but frustration led me to put the items down and look for elsewhere to purchase.

This led me to Regent mall... which by the way is attached to a large wal-mart and I would not have discovered the mall hiding beside it if the GPS did not tell me there was a sportchek hiding inside. Inside the mall has your typical mall attire, open areas for sitting, some fancy custom storefronts... nothing special.. I began to wander the mall in search of the sportchek when I found EB Games. Those of you who personally know me will know that I beelined it for the EB Games.

This is what heaven looks like for Geeks.
I expected my usual EB Games trip... a quiet simple trip, no communication with another human being, just time spent alone to stare at the pretty artwork of video-game covers. (don't tell me that video-game covers aren't art. I guarantee that more time and effort was put into the image on that tiny box than anything Jackson Pollock ever made) Instead I was approached by the friendly salesman who asked me what brought me into EB. "Just Looking." I told him... yep. the consumer cold shoulder. but rather than leave he said "cool, what kind of games are you into? have you heard much about the new Assassins creed?" ... I lost half an hour of my life discussing with him how awesome it was that they were bringing the world of Assassins Creed to North America. and I almost bought a PSVita. I probably would have too if I didn't have money allocated for a pre-order which would have to be placed back in Alberta.

Next up... East Side Skate Shop.

I'm not a skater by any means. but I do love my skate shoes. and Brenton... you have me sold on your brand by far. I came into the shop and you immediately complimented me on my Winnipeg Jets hoodie, we talked about our hometowns, and how nice the east side has been so far. You may not ever remember me, but your genuine human kindness got me into my awesome new shoes, and an awesome East Side T-Shirt as well. You Sir, Sold me Yourself. and got me happy... excited about the product I was trying on. and loved every moment of the experience.

After a little bit of internet digging I found this...

This is for you Brenton. I hope it brings you at least one more sale someday.

I know today didn't really follow the usual format
and seems like more of a  wordy advert for the mall.
But... I did say I would write what brought me happiness.
and this did.. I met some genuinely good people. see you tomorrow!

Happy Days readers.

Monday 26 March 2012

Letting Go

I was attacked again today.

I've been attacked a lot recently by people that I thought meant something to me at some point. It's one of the challenges I face with starting over. The past is clawing at me to get what it wants before it lets me go. Today the attack was different though... the person sought to reach me through a sibling and "Finally..." I thought.

Not "Finally this person has succeeded in contacting me"
Not "Finally I have something to respond to"
Not "Finally I see what this persons true colors are"


"Finally... I'm not angry."

I had a five year old call me a crybaby today. sorry pal, no matter what you throw at me can't top that!
There's just no competing with this... "bro"
But I'm not the crybaby, far from it. I'm living on the other side of the country and I'm enjoying my life. Today, it didn't matter that I was attacked, your video game controllers are not my problem. I'm not mad that you won't stop bugging me for them... I'm sad. Sad that your problems in life amount to getting controllers for a console you don't own. Sad that you bring other people into your petty problems. Sad that your concerns are placed with inanimate objects and not other human beings.

If all it will cost me to have you out of my life is 2 XBOX  controllers
and a couple of cheap pre-owned video-games... then I'm fucking coming out ahead.
You're the one that's placed the value of your friendship at ~120CAD
the people still in my life don't have a pricetag

You'll get your stuff back... when I'm back in Alberta... but until then. I can't be bothered with your tiny problem.


Sunday 25 March 2012

a Shark in the Water


Today, I went swimming with my nephew. I haven't gone swimming like that for years. I started on my own, walking into the "cold" water. My sister says it's freezing, when really it isn't any worse than the showers I've had on days where the hot water is out. 

It's not that bad... really.
I've forgotten a lot of simple things though, like the fact that the cold is still a shock to the body and I shouldn't proceed to exert my body immediately. Any guesses on what I did     next? Laps. I ran up and down the length of the pool until my body couldn't handle it any more. which of course wasn't very long at all... I'd say 10-15 minutes at most. The important part was the state of mind it put me in. I came back to the shallow end to visit with my sister and nephew. My nephew had just gotten in trouble, he does that a lot. As luck would have it I jumped through some bars at the pool and proceeded to get myself into trouble too...
Boys will be boys.


After my nephew and me had a quick chat with Mom and lifeguard, respectively, it was back to the pool for fun. Only minutes into our swim had passed when something magical had happened... We found a boat in the water!
a boat
I have no idea how much time passed on that boat, at most it was only two hours... but it felt like days upon days. With my nephew and his young friend we powered around the seas. We fought pirates, we killed sharks and ate them for dinner, we won swimming trophies. (O.K. They won swimming trophies... apparently I suck at swimming so I don't get any trophies... so sayeth the kids) 

For a while even I was the shark, swimming under the mat... I mean boat... and attacking... lifting the mat into the sky! and hearing the kids scream! It was a new kind of scream to my ears... this was not a scream of fear, or of anger or of any negative emotion. it was a scream of J-O-Y. An excitement so wild and beyond control they could not contain themselves! "Again! Again!" they shouted. and I did.

I continued lifting the boat into the sky over and over until the lifeguard stopped me, told me it wasn't safe for them. I listened out of respect for the lifeguard. but what did she know? I had them, they were in no danger. Whether they bumped their heads, or there was a swimming pool bully.. there was no problem that I could not fix for them. none of the problems I have matter. I could protect them for a while, from everything... with me, they would be happy. 

Today I learned the most amazing thing about myself...
I am Superman.


the first step.

Hello.

Nice to meet you World. its me... remember me? I've been gone for a long time.
but for the first time in a long time... I'm fighting my way back to you. it's not easy.
I don't think I can do it alone... being alone is what got me here in the first place.

Coming up from the darkness is a difficult task, and this journal is a tool to aid me.
It doesn't matter to me if you pay attention to this my friend, World... 
I see everything you have that makes life worth living.
Happy things will stay marked here
Memories of it all.
Love You.
PRKW